December 10, 2009

And So...

It's December 10th. Just mere weeks away from Christmas. And the truth of the matter is... I have no desire to have the holidays come. A more accurate explanation is that I would simply like to check out. Check out of all the holiday mess. Check out entirely for awhile and just be left alone.

Depressed much? Yep. I am.

Not that there is any particular reason, except for maybe, everything in general.

The simple truth is that I am not happy. I am trying to figure out who I am after all these years and... I just don't know who that is anymore. I have tried to be happy being everything to everyone and at the end of the day... I just feel spent.

So... now what?